me & tantra

My path to tantra wasn’t something I planned.
It was more a journey full of questions, confusion, and searching… searching for myself, for love, meaning, closeness.

Like every child, I longed for love from an early age. But I had the feeling I had to earn it — by being good, smart, productive… just good enough.
I remember when, in middle school, I suddenly became part of a group of girlfriends — and I had no idea how it happened. “What did I do right?” I wondered.

Later, when I started to become more aware of my sexuality and realized I wasn’t attracted to boys, fear crept in. I was afraid of being judged. I feared the other girls would avoid me in the showers, that people would think I was a freak.
It took me a long time to feel natural and comfortable in my own skin. And even when I became more confident, there was still that unfulfilled longing for intimacy and closeness.

When I fell in love for the first time, I was completely swept away.
I felt like I had finally found what I’d been yearning for all those years — but in the process, I lost myself.

I also felt lost in the ever-present question:
What do I actually want to do with my life?
I had a degree, a job in healthcare, I was helping people — and still, I knew it wasn’t it.
What I longed for was freedom, playfulness, depth…

On top of that, I was addicted to porn — to cheap dopamine.
The only way I could reach orgasm was through frantic clitoral stimulation and endlessly replaying fantasies in my head — whether I was alone or with someone.
I was almost always in my mind, not in my body.
Completely disconnected from the present moment, as if it wasn’t even really happening to me.

SEARCHING

AWAKENING

I used to know tantra only as “that weird word from books.”
It wasn’t until I was traveling through the U.S. that everything changed — completely unexpectedly, I ended up at a weekend retreat and BAM. Everything shifted.

At that retreat, I experienced my first energetic orgasm — without touch, without porn, without fantasies. Just through breath, movement, and presence.
I started learning how to communicate my boundaries and desires.
How to ask for what I truly want.
And how not to be afraid to say “no.”

Suddenly, I realized that the limits of what I thought was possible were much further than I ever imagined — and that I could redefine them for myself.

Tantra now brings joy, pleasure, connection, and gratitude into my life every single day.
But most importantly — it brings me back to myself.

It showed me that there is no one “right path.”
That everything we do can be right — when we do it consciously, with heart, and with love.

And today? I’m still on the journey.
Still learning, exploring, growing… and I want to share with you what has changed my life.

So if this resonates with you — welcome. You’re in the right place.

MY JOURNEY & EDUCATION

I graduated with a Master’s degree in Applied Physiotherapy, which I completed in 2021. I’ve always been interested in working with the body and the human being — but over time, I began to feel that something was missing. I felt a desire to go deeper, beyond what can be measured or described on paper.

I began my tantric journey at the start of 2024. At first through my own practice, reading, breathwork, meditation, touch, and self-exploration… and later I completed a certified Kaula Tantra Yoga training (YTT 200) at the Durga’s Tiger School in Ecuador.

Shortly after, I participated in training at the Tantric Priestess Academy, where I learned tao-tantric massage techniques, somatic methods, working with emotions, energy, breath, and voice, as well as how to create a safe space, lead rituals, and work with boundaries.

Continuing education in trauma work, somatics, polarity, and conscious intimacy is something I am still deeply engaged in — always learning, exploring, and going deeper.

But most importantly: I live it all. Everything I teach, I have first experienced myself.

That’s why I know it works. Because it changed my life. And I stand behind it with my whole heart.